I "REALLY" Hate The Bluesky

Well, there goes one another person left my life... I'm losing them one by one... my friends,my soulmates,my influenced person, and all the people that what is said by them is important for me... and this means, i have less choices to ran on to...less place i can go for my grieve...and buried all my burdens...share my happiness... though in the end i still know that i don't have anyone else except me and family... is my world only a house sized?? Hell,NO! but what do i have for options??

Maybe is just a gift that has been given to me... I'm a super talented in annoying people... Get close real fast as fast as i ended up losing them again... It's just some kind a disease, don't know why-don't know how...it's just did... and im really getting bored of all this.. this casualties taken me part by part... ripping me to pieces and left me nothing but a feeling of sorry for myself... And again,where should i go to share this??? would you?

Nowadays..is not like the old one's

here, there... still the same old life... just a pouch of happiness that i held tight in my hands... nothing more..nothing less... and nothing is out of my sight.. everything is in its equilibrium,.. it's just i don't know where the line is... it's just feels that way now.. maybe something missing, but i don't know the exact answer.. i don't even know what 2 say.. S**t!!! yeah...S**t happens... and i aint longing for any hopes again.. for quite some time i aint heard such rubbish like "dreams".. do i have any...i am just like it... the way it is now... very much different, but on the inside... it's just ME...all ME