Nowadays..is not like the old one's

here, there... still the same old life... just a pouch of happiness that i held tight in my hands... nothing more..nothing less... and nothing is out of my sight.. everything is in its equilibrium,.. it's just i don't know where the line is... it's just feels that way now.. maybe something missing, but i don't know the exact answer.. i don't even know what 2 say.. S**t!!! yeah...S**t happens... and i aint longing for any hopes again.. for quite some time i aint heard such rubbish like "dreams".. do i have any...i am just like it... the way it is now... very much different, but on the inside... it's just ME...all ME